10 Month Letter

Dear Gus Gus,

Wow you are 10 months! You have a personality, a voice, an opinion and a real presence in our household. You are not that little baby we are always tending too, but rather a little boy that likes to make his presence known. I know I have mentioned in previous letters that you have a nice laid back easy going personality like your Daddy. Wrong! Kiddo you definitely are my child. You go a mile a minute, you love people, you wear your emotions on your sleeve and you have a very loud laugh! You do have a ton of your dad in you just not the laid back part. You prefer a routine and like things done a certain way, that is all Daddy. Most of all I have realized you are your own person, you have now developed that. You are GUS!

Daily activities include pointing, babbling, clapping, singing, dancing, crying, screaming, crawling, standing and trying to walk. We are exhausted! We took another trip to Texas to see your Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles and Cousins. You are so lucky because you have big families on both sides. Mommy had some anxiety for the plane rides, but you were great both trips. We also drove for a 4 hour car ride to New Braunfels and you were relatively good in the car too! We spent the weekend at a lake house and you got some quality time with the Bell family. You and your cousins played, laughed and exhausted all the adults. Your new baby cousin Finn resembles you! I am so curious to see when he gets bigger if you still will resemble each other. We had a great time and hope to see your grandparents again for your birthday!

We are rounding up on a year that you have been part of our lives. I still look at you with utter amazement; it is so fun to see you learn new things.

I sometimes feel like the minute I say you do something you stop. For example, you were sleeping for 10-12 hours a night and now you are in this phase where you want to wake up a 4 am. You want a bottle and you want to start your day. Sometimes we can get you to go back asleep and sometimes not. Anyway we are trying to break you of this habit. Also, you are a little guy, only 10% for weight. I am trying my best to fatten you up but you are on some sort of an eating strike. Every now and again you eat great, but for the most part you are just pissed off that we confined you to a high chair. You have better things to do like crawling laps back and forth down our hallway. You want to be active and on the move at all times. I introduced the sippy cup at 5 months and have tried a couple different brands you still do not like it. I so want you to start drinking Cow’s Milk as soon as you turn one, and I want to give it to you in the sippy cup. But you are not having it. I want to break you from the bottle as soon as I can.

We are also hanging on to your pacifier, you are getting those top two teeth and the pacifier helps put pressure on your gums. But I fear you are getting too dependent and breaking you of this could be a nightmare.

OK, so I am going to admit this for the first time. I have some guilt for not being with you daily as your development is in full speed. Mommy loves her job and has always loved to work. But I do feel I miss out on seeing you grow and develop! You are changing at lightening speeds and I do not want to miss a single minute. I know those first steps are near and I hope I am there to see them. On the other hand, I do believe you get the best of me, I cherish the time we do have together. I would never want to take that for granted. Someday you will have a passion for something and I hope you are as fortunate as I am to find a career that helps you express it. If anything that is one life lesson you learn from me. Follow your heart and follow your passion.

Love you so much Gusser!

Mommy